Overload in scarlet_dragon

I’ve been feeling very overloaded lately. I can sometimes go days and days without any notifications or people texting or having to deal with this, that or the other thing but these last few days have felt like too much. I know you can pick and chose what kind of notifications you receive so in some small part we can shut those things down but we live in a society now that wants to notify everyone of everything.
I don’t think we were built to handle the constant influx of information without a break.
It may seem like not a lot but today I got calls from two different doctors and then called again by the second one to change the date of the first appointment we set up. And it’s just too much. I do these things for everyone else in the family but let me health go to shit because they need taken care of.
We also are a one car family right now and juggling multiple appointments, jobs daily errands etc is becoming challenging.
Sure I miss my younger years because of my flawless skin and only weighing 130 pounds but also that I could handle things better. I feel like my internal system is on fire all the time. Like moments when I should be fine when there’s no threat etc my mind feels empty I’ll just lay in bed and my heart is racing for no reason.
My brain when it is up and about is always like, Oh hey I’ve got to clean those dishes, fix that thing, put that shit away, remind boy A and B about this and that, schedule appointments, buy new glasses and contact, make a payment on a bill. Etc etc etc. Sure these are the thing I took on when being a stay at home parent but now in my 40s I’m beat down and tired. It’s got to be a hormone thing. I’ve been thinking it’s a hormone thing for about 16 years now and haven’t done anything about it. But I’m at my wits end. I’m not depressed today like usual I’m stressed.
I’ll be trying to deal and then oh bling my camera system lets me know the batteries are low and need changed, Sit down crack open a book to try and relax and phone rings to set up another appointment, try a 3rd time and the computer is letting me know it needs updated. I sometimes just want to run away screaming for the hills. I never will but then when I’ve been trying to process these micro choices all day someone in the family will walk in and be like what should we do about ____ (fill in blank)? And I will lose it and explode. It’s not their fault but sometimes I just wish someone else would just do whatever. I don’t care anymore I just need other people making choices.
Something tells me if I could magically get all those micro to do lists done it still wouldn’t be enough I’d find something else that sets me off.
Anywho that’s where I am today. I think I’m stressed out over the amount of books I own and want to read too. I never meant for a hobby to become work but it’s starting to feel like a checklist I need to finish and that’s dumb.