Too Much in scarlet_dragon

I feel like I’m in an emotional downturn again. Like usual. I get this at least 2-3 times a month now for a few days. The funk. I need to have my hormones checked badly because I can’t continue on this way.
Along with so many life changes. I guess honestly it’s just changes for my kid but still changes none the less. One more reminder of how fast time is going by. I just miss his squishy stage sometimes. Wish I could go back and tell myself to give him an extra hug, or more attention because it won’t always be that hard. I won’t always feel like I was doing it all alone.
I know this is the natural progression of how your kids lives are suppose to go but doesn’t mean I’m not allowed to be kinda sad about it too.
I dropped my kid off at his first day of work and I may have sat in the car and cried and then cried the whole way home. Then cried for about 20 more mins. My husband came downstairs and wondered what was the problem.
He use to offer me more of a shoulder to be upset on but now a days he just asks once and walks off to do something else. Sure he started dinner but I feel like his empathy is lacking completely. PTSD meds will do that, I guess.
Whole other can of worms for some other day.
I just don’t feel good, I didn’t sleep and it’s all a little too much right now.