I invited my crush over. ME! I have never had a boy at my house and I'm feeling like a teenager again, all giggly and excited. I'm so happy I can show him around. I'm also hoping for us to FINALLY kiss - we didn't yet. I'm so shy every time I see him staring, I look away lol. And yet I want to kiss him so badly. I really, really hope tommorow will be the day we kiss. I'm manifesting it.
I haven't seen him in 1,5 week. At first I thought "Yay, alone time!" but then at the beginning of this week I started missing him terribly. I still don't know everything about him, he's my friend but still a stranger but... I wanted to see him. But he was busy with work and yet he still found some time to text me during the day and say the sweetest things. He's really kind.
But about the kiss.. I feel so confident now and imagine that maybe I'll do the first step but WHO AM I KIDDING?? I will not. I will panic again, I'm sure. That's why I was thinking of simply asking him to kiss me. This way, I'd be less anxious? But I don't know.
I only kissed one person before and I was shy then. I was also a bad kisser - maybe that's what's stopping me from kissing him. I'm afraid I won't remember how to do it. It's been 5 years since I've kissed anyone so yeah, I forgot.
But maybe I'll be okay. I know now that I want to kiss him 100%. I wasn't sure before when I went to his house for a date. I was anxious as hell then and the moment wasn't right. But now I'm READY. BRING IT ON!!
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