I took a look around at my peer group last week and realized I am one of very few left getting my hair colored. Who am I fooling? Well, I am done with color. We will see what I look like under the color. I will be just as surprised as anyone.
A friend of several decades called me today. I knew she had gone MIA. She was finally able to let me know she had tried to kill herself (again) with pills. She was real close to success this time. It’s hard to know what to say or what to ask. A part of me is angry with her. A bigger part feels empathy. So many of us are fighting to stay alive …..I hope she decides to stick around. She is staying with her sister now, out of state. I think it’s good for her to not be alone.
Another friend is wearing on me. Her husband told her, “it’s all about you.” I am starting to feel that way too. We have to eat where she wants, every time. We have to shop where she wants, but in the end I am always sitting in a chair or stoop or whatever I can find. I don’t have the stamina or quite frankly the interest to shop like most women. I am going to try to distance myself, at least some. Truth is I don’t have enough friends to easily discard one. I think we have grown apart. She expected my recovery from my illness and surgery to be much quicker than it was. (Continues to be?). Yeah, I’d probably be impatient with me too.
We continue rocking on at our house. Trying to beat the heat. My husband has finally just about given up his air conditioning side hustle, except for minor repair jobs. He will be 73 in August and too dang old in my opinion to be crawling in hot attics.
He has kept himself busy with a garden this year and the yard work never ends. I don’t enjoy yard work and don’t do it. I also spend lots of money to have nice looking nails. 😎. I don’t like much else about the way I look these days, but I have good “fake” nails.
The dogs are dogs and continue to give me more joy than people do. I have one that is particularly attached to me. I call her my Velcro dog. If she could crawl in my skin to be closer, she probably would.
Have an appointment with an orthopedic doctor tomorrow. Hub had one with his on Wednesday. We do have a lot of doctors appointments. So very thankful for good health insurance too.
I don’t follow as many people as I did during the OD days. Lost a lot of them in the transition I suppose. I also suspect FB has taken the place for a lot of people.
Hope you are weathering the summer well. Hope you are being kind to the people that cross your path. Seems to be more hatefulness in this old world. Let’s not add to that, you and me too.
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