I’ve been sitting here all day thinking, how can I give my word to people and keep it, yet I can’t keep my word to myself?
It’s crazy to think about that, but it’s true. If I tell you whatever you say to me will never be uttered, like it’s deeper than 6 ft in the ground. It’s the truth.
If I tell you I’m going to do something for you, then you best believe it will be done to the best of my ability because I gave you my word that it would be done.
Why can’t I give myself my word? Say I want to do something and keep it no matter what. No matter who tries to steer me in another direction.
Always looking out to make sure the other person’s feelings are not hurt. Still, I’m the one hurting. I’m supposed to swallow the pain that comes from swallowing the words that need to be said.
Then I keep a little bit of my word and say what needs to be said, and it’s like it’s pushed to the back of the closet with all those forgetful things that nobody cares about.
I’m going to keep my word to myself now. I’m so happy this is not a new year, because this is not a resolution that I know I will fail at.
Feelings may get hurt, but it will be because I am honest and tell you exactly how it is. I’ve listened to everyone and given more chances than I would give anyone else. Looking at myself in the mirror, I see that I am splintered. There are three parts to me, and I need to pull it back to one.
I’m going to keep my word.
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