The Universe Sucks Right Now! in Thoughts

Have you ever heard something that made absolutely no sense at all? I should start this differently. Today, the weather is comfortable. OK, that's all I have for you about the weather.<o:p></o:p>

Back to the question. How is it that I'm involved in a conversation that I have no control over the outcome? It seems  that people have a misconstrued conception about my title and how much weight I can pull.<o:p></o:p>

I'm a great problem solver. But I can't dig you out of a hole that you dug so deep, even my fingertips can't touch you to help you out.<o:p></o:p>

I'm sitting here just thinking that two years ago, maybe a little bit more, I wanted to be the assistant to the manager. I was so determined to get it. I remember it was the beginning of the year, and I woke up with this feeling that it was going to be my year.<o:p></o:p>

I've had enough of allowing people to take credit for everything I've done. So I went to my manager and gave her the best pitch on why I would be a great assistant.<o:p></o:p>

The universe is funny. It'll let you go through all the motions so when you actually see what is involved it's like a pie in the face. Not only that, they want me to jump through hoops and clean up messes and keep my mouth shut about other managers who are incompetent. They wanted me to stay exactly where I was.<o:p></o:p>

I did one thing that all older employees told me not to do. Because what did they know? They had no ambition; all they cared about was making it to retirement. I learned too much and I did too much. I gave away too much of myself and took very little in return.<o:p></o:p>

Not becoming that assistant manager is the saving grace. Without the title, can you tell me why they are acting as if I'm an assistant manager? Every office I go into, I see people look at me and start to whisper. I've even seen people straighten up in their seats when I pass by. WTF?<o:p></o:p>

I don't have the power that they perceived I had. I was told once that they thought I was so close to the higher-ups that I could get them fired. Me?<o:p></o:p>

Once they get to know me then they realize what they thought was absolute garbage. Do I have any kind of power? I may have some and I may have helped four or five people keep their jobs without them knowing. I have trained more managers and assistant CEO over the years and I still cannot move up.<o:p></o:p>

I gather the universe is telling me, “You know what to do, and stop giving it away.”<o:p></o:p>

I'm just tired. <o:p></o:p>