Why do people think depression is something that you can just fix with “get up and get a life” or “be happy” and an endless list of words that seem only to be beneficial to those who speak them.? Ive been told i’m “antisocial, too emotional,a moody bitch,paranoid,i’m having a pity party, i’m mad,stress too much or get hype” …and that i need to “get up and get a life,have some fun, relax, dont stress” and the list goes on.
Yet not one of them said they understand or what can i do to help. I told one sister “i feel everyone would be happy if i was dead”.....she said go ahead if that is how you feel”. So i did....ended up in the psych ward for a few weeks and counseling sessions .
No kind of “support” from family and the few friends i do have ....they dont understand one bit of it. Or just dont know how to deal with it.
Some days....i want to just stay in bed and just veg out ya know, those are the worse. Yet somehow i pull myself together and drag myself out the bed and get ready for work. No make up, no kind of enhancement to make me look better…just me.
I go work, plaster a smile on my face....inside im crying and dying. :(
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