Im trying to understand emotions in I love life anyway

I've been learning all I can about emotions and feelings. I never was good at those. Sometimes I don't notice when others cry right away. I miss half the conversation because I can't decipher the others emotions. I don't read social cues well. I'm progressing though. I've made people mad at me. I'm a wreck. I want to express myself and be heard for me. Not everyone likes me. I don't like them either at times. Right now rejection is the worst feeling I have. I'm not sure I'm accepted by my friends. I need some of them to reach out to me so I know they care.