I haven’t had the chance to write recently. Well, because life happened.
I got to travel, meet new people, try a new hobby, and the craziest of all.. I found a life partner.
Things have been perfect for the last 5 months. Or so i thought.
I lost 2 of my clients (which was 2/3 of my income), one of them didn’t pay more than $1500 of my professional fee because their business went down and I can’t get a hold of the business owners and managers. I got even sicker. My medical condition progressed and its now stopping me from getting more clients. Stressful environments and conditions elevates the symptoms, stopping me from working, and If I don’t get enough work I’ll struggle to pay off my bills. Then I’ll just be in another set of stress. It’s not a pretty situation. My ex (who I broken up with since mid of last year) has been stalking me. Literally showing up at 3am in front of my house and making new social media accounts/getting new phone numbers to contact me, just to ask me to take him back. I’ve already contacted our local authorities and managed to get him banned from entering our subdivision. But it doesn’t stop him from online harassment. I can’t even count how many accounts I’ve blocked off just to keep him away.
My hands are literally shaking as I type this. I’ve been keeping them bottled up - trying to pretend it doesn’t exist - just to try to live my day and “be normal”. This puts me in a constant state of anxiety. I’ve tried to see a psychologist and even called the emergency mental health line at our local area, but they weren’t too helpful.
At this point I’m not looking for answers, just a place to rant out these emotions. I’m sorry if my negativity rubs on you as you read this. I hope you live your life happily.
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