Letter of Love in QUOTIDIEN
- Oct. 3, 2014, 10:05 a.m.
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I can’t do it. I’ve had my fingers hovering over the keyboard throughout the day, searching for the words to express my love to my husband. What a word, ‘love’. If you pay heed to society’s insistence that love=perfect unity , perfect joy, perfect happiness, you wind up never having known love.
All that comes to mind is that the beginning of our relationship felt like Spring. Everything was fresh, and warm. Healing. A coming out of the death of my broken life, as it was then. He welcomed me - embraced me - and knew me. This was not a meeting of two individuals…but an instant recognition between souls.
And the end was about the brilliant, starlit night, brazen moon, and still waters. Cool breezes and comfort. There was balance, and quiet. We had quit taking ourselves so seriously after the fiery summers. We’d weathered the worst of blustery Falls together..... and suddenly, no seasons. Just the night. The quiet. The knowing without any need for the brilliance of daylight to guide our paths. We just knew. We were just as intended to belong to one another as the seasons are meant to belong to this earth - and just as connected as day is to night.
This was our love - ever changing, from one beautiful season to the next. From one state of being, to another. This was my love. In spite of everything…this continues to be true, dammit. So - which hurts worse - the letter detailing the anger....or the letter describing my love? The tears taste the same!
All that I have left to give, now, is the gift of forgiveness - to us both. With this act, borne out of love, I banish the broken pieces, the sorrow, the pain, the anger, the suffering.
My Sweet - may my love find you, wherever you may be, and know that I desire only that you’ve found your peace, your balance.
GypsyWynd ⋅ October 03, 2014
Beautiful.
MJ's Page GypsyWynd ⋅ October 04, 2014
:)
Dancing Queen ⋅ October 04, 2014
This, whether intended to be or not, is a beautiful love letter.
MJ's Page Dancing Queen ⋅ October 04, 2014
You are all so kind. Thanks.
ODSago ⋅ October 08, 2014
I love the overarching of the seasons of your love and would agree with others...it seems a love letter to him in my reading of it, too. Thank you for sharing this. And for sharing the idea--I thought I'd do that, too, for my lost guy...felt good.
I admire your stamina, your determination to move forward and to be honest. Stand tall, when you look back.
Songbird3 ⋅ October 15, 2014
Hi. So sorry for your loss. I found that writing letters to my husband was/still is profoundly helpful. I've written nearly 200, not all are here. I used to write on another, now defunct site. I wrote my grief, my love and my daily events that he & I would talk about at the day's end. A handful are here. You are welcome to read them.
Deleted user ⋅ November 16, 2014
That is a true love letter ....