It’s been a while and with it a very wild ride. I find myself in a relationship not sure if it’s the one but time will tell. Just like the title said this new year I have set myself on a more selfish path if putting myself first. My word is Stability and I plan on questioning whether paths and decisions placed in front of me are going to bring me stability. whether it be financial, emotional, physical, mental, etc. this year I want to end in the best place possible. think about myself and myself only. Enough about the new year let’s talk about how the last one went.
In July I decided to go on Bumble (literally had no hope but a free meal) and then I matched with my guy. We set up a date at a really nice restaurant. A bit of a drive for me ( 40mins) and almost involved in a car accident (which made me question whether it was a sign that this was not a good idea or a good sign that i was not??? not sure ) anyways i make it. We had an amazing time… great conversation and great food. He was not my usual type. He is what I like to call a sophisticated country. He is about 5ft 9in, white, shoulder length curly light brown hair, amazing sky blue eyes, mustache and a goat beard, wearing a flannel, jeans, boot looking shoes and a hat. It was summer time down here. Once we sat down and talked I got such a great feeling. We went all out for dinner talking and eating. I was a little taken back when he asked me to go back to his place which I clearly stated that I was not one of those girls and that if that was what he wanted then this was a fun night but he could lose my number lol. He reassured me that was not the case but that he had a condo near the beach and had an amazing view that we could sit and watch. I was hesitant but said yes. We drove separately of course and my friend was already on speed dial with my location shared and a text which updated her on what I was doing. I went ahead and got out of my car. (I know I know I sound really stupid and dumb but I had already done my research on this guy and we live at a time when girls have plans and I had a friend waiting for a message with our safety word.) Anyways, he was in fact right! The condo was on the 19th floor and we were 5mins from the beach. (safety word sent about 30 mins into my visit). We watched the last bit of the sunset and watched as the moon took its place. Watched a movie and ended the night with a walk down to my car. Which had an unexpected and awkward kiss next to it. (It had been a while for me since dating and/or being in this situation where i felt comfortable enough to last past dinner so I totally fucked it up) and as I was driving home. I realized that I had messed it up and I was not sure what to do or what to say. Until I got home and received a message from him… Apologizing. That’s when I knew I had something uniquely different. From that day on we have been through dates, sleep overs, double dates with my best friend, meeting my family, meeting his family, christmas, time apart, skeet shooting, mini golf, harry potter marathons, lord of the rings marathon, cooking for each other, visiting his hometown, beach days, beating him at go karts, his and my birthday, new years, and much more. In such a short time I have done more than in years with the others. I have been supported, held, cared for and treated like someone important. We still have a few hiccups of course but he has shown that he is willing to work on them with me.
As much as I want to continue the hiccups for next time.... stay tuned because I need some guidance.
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