Bryce David Saturday, May 18, 2013
In the effort to avoid being corny I have become cynical. Jaded.
If I want something more out of my life I must work for it instead of wishing and dreaming it. That was corny yes but the truest words. I overlook corny words because they are often over-used. I overlook them and don't take them seriously. I have to work. If I want to be a writer/author I must write. Duh. No sense in worrying about how to become published. I will figure it out. I do have some self-confidence left. Besides, If the content is good enough. If my story is great I will be published. But I can't be published if I don't have work. A story.
I never had many women in my life romantically speaking. Two semi serious flings. The second currently happening. I am very scared because I am sure I like this girl but I don't feel that I am in the right position in my life to be having a relationship. I told myself If i get my shit together then I may start seeking out a girlfriend. I told myself to get my shit together then I will give myself permission to date.
This girl seems to really like me. her name is Ashley. I don't think its a big deal to ention a FIRST name on here.
Anyway, the BIG BIG BIG news I am an Uncle. Again. 5/15/13 baby Bryce was born. I bought him a blue Teddy bear with a sixers t-shirt on him. As of now I didn't get to see him because of work. I'm' sad about it but I know in the big scheme of things I am gonna see plenty of him. So overall I am okay with it. Hopefully I see him tomorrow actually.
He was born 5 weeks premature. He is a healthy baby just born early. He's 5 pounds and a couple ounces. He's super tiny. Bryce and Landon will be in the same grade. That's pretty cool.
So yeah. I'm super excited to be an uncle again. 3 nephews. 2 nieces. To be continued. Jaime is off her birth control. Paul and Jess want more. Idk how many more. Amanda says she is done but lets see where she is in 3 years or so. I doubt Amanda is done. Robert and Shannon might want kids. So these next like 10 years will be full of children.
So if you read my diary, remember when I said my life is boring? I suppose Its not.
A part of me (a big part) feels really uncomfortable with this huge family expansion lately. I have never in my life imagined this. Which is both cool and unsettling. in the matter of a year I all of a sudden have a huge family. I'm ot sure I like that 100 percent. Call me an asshole if you want. Call me ungrateful. But the thought of a huge family isn't that awesome to me. I love my entire family but there is ALOT now.
I don't know if there is more I have to say. If so I will write more later.
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