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- Aug. 24, 2014, 5:13 p.m.
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there were things, over the past month, that i told myself i'd do when i got back. i thought, "life will be different after this." i told myself that because it HAS to be, or else it will be miserable.
i will start brewing beer
i will grow another sourdough starter
i will go to farmers markets more often
i will make yogurt by the gallon
i will help andrew with the garden
maybe if i focus on things that grow, i will feel more like i have roots again
and maybe if i start doing all the little things that are markers of Real Life, i will forget how amazing it is to live it in all the places that aren't here, and the vacation comedown can be monotonous instead of painful:
i will go grocery shopping
i will order checks!
i will go to the bike shop
i will stop eating so many donuts
and
you know what's next
(all together:)
"i will write."
but i guess i said that about my last trip and i never did. i don't know if i will write about this trip.
i think what i have to write about, what i need help processing right now, is home. because after traveling and experiencing about a thousand miles of other places, home is the most alienating place i've been in weeks
Phade ⋅ August 24, 2014
This is probably the best advice for anyone who kind of wants to be anywhere else but here. But at the same time, when you make those kind of plans of BEING HERE, of things you have to come back to, then there's a part of you that finds it apprehensive because it means you're going to be HERE for a while longer. When all we want is not be.
That just reminds me, and with that article we read, I sorely need a vacation from people, out there in nature where it's just all me and the natural state of the world.