Maybe in MOON's chaotic lfe

Been listening to a beautiful song by Elyse Myers -maybe and let me tell you something! That women can sing for sure. Anyway it had me thinking about all the things that I have done (and the things that I haven’t) I can’t believe that this song resumes my whole life and who I have allowed in basically people obsessed with hurting me, REPETEDLY.... like when I tell you that I would be their human punching ball and still be willing to help them and serve them and in this very simple part of my brain still think that they will love me after all the good that I was giving them. I have never thought of doing this for myself . NOPE nothing left for me at the end of the day I would be so disgusted with myself that I would blame myself constantly and still wake up the next day, do the EXACT SAME THING and think that that day would be different and that eventually things would be better and that the tide would change .........WITHOUT CHANGING ANYTHING IN THE WAY I TREAT MYSELF......... never thought that shouting out my thoughts would actually become my new obsession. Somebody stop me!!!