Over a week in General Chatterboxing

Audra has been here over a week. Its amazing how little time it takes to make something feel like forever. Currently shes sleeping in her bassinet. Kids are doing their normal am thing. Arguing, playing kindles. Fighting me on if they can watch tv. Life is unexpectedly moving on. Shes growing bigger. I swear in a couple days she feels like shes getting back to 8 lbs, but it could just be that im feeling weak. I need iron. We are going about our business. Needing to rearrange today to get couches in here tomorrow. Tony is at the eye dr. They are open on Sat. (LOVE IT!) Im still in my PJs. Yesterday i visited my mom, picked up a few boxes. Shes so close to moving and im trying really hard not to let myself feel it once again. Then went shopping. I was good, bought from my list. She bought clothes lol. Im jealous. I wanna splurge on clothes. But by going back to Colorado they are saving over 1K a month soooo i guess you cant blame her for splurging lol. I need to bring in some bags, or go through them in the shed and find myself some clothes. Im down to my pre pregnancy, pre weightloss weight. Which means 90% of my clothes will fit me again. I just havent worn any. I have two pair of maternity pants that look great on me. Im wearing those. And maternity shirts because they are all fitted shirts and look decent. I just look a bit flubby at this point. Im wondering if its going to be hard to take off these 20 lbs. It was so hard to take them off before. But now im eating for nursing. Hungry and thirsty all the time and on a total sugar binge. Its hard. This stage. Tony keeps saying you are only a week out. Relax... But i feel flubby. I dont like it. He says im loosing. But not too much really. 15 lbs. Thats just her and her extras lol. Bah whatever. Ill work on it. All winter right? To sit on my butt in my cabin in the woods. Maybe if i get some rearranging done it will look more cabin ish and less.... Hidey hole ish lol. I guess i should get going... Life goes on right. It dosent wait for you, for me. Or for my newborn who is growing so fast.