Stagnant - 21.07.14 in Your Face

Feeling like I'm going nowhere fast. It's a horrible feeling, and it's not correct. I only sent my forms to the US Consulate on Friday (the ones I had to send, the main one I did online when I was in Dubbo). I just have to wait to hear further from them as to what they need me to do from here.

I just feel alone. I spend a lot of time with other humans, but it's not satisfying. It's not what I need. I need to be cuddled.

I don't want to talk, don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I'm sick to death of talking about my move with every single person, ever. I went for my blood test on Friday and the lady said, 'So, just a day off work today, then?' and I just nodded. I'm not getting into it with strangers, so it's easier to just go along with whatever they say.

I have decided to make sure I have one task to do each day, again. I fell out of the habit a month ago, easily. Tomorrow I have someone coming to look at the car, then lunch with an old work friend.

I just want to go. So badly. I want my husband and my dog.