Everyone finally see that ugly side of Matt .... in Silent world

So much have happened since I got back from vacation. Matt is the focus point, and I am starting to really HATE him. I have never hate anybody as much as I do him. I'm at my breaking point. Let me backtrack a little bit..... All this started is when I was in Florida. I think Matt think I sit on PILES OF MONEY... and LOTS OF IT! cause I am on a vacation.... Whatever. He didnt know Ryan paid everything and that he took us there because we deserve a break from reality.

So He took kids ( his time) and decide out of blue not to let them talk to me via SKYPE. I got so upset because what kind of a father that wouldnt let the kids speak to their mother? I didn't hear from them for a week and half, and then he finally contact me and said " Well this is what happen when you dont agree with me on the custody thing. We have to go to court and get this shit straighten out" I told him I am not going to talk to him about custody or the court and to let me speak to the kids. He said NO.

The next day, Matt text me and said " OH by the way when I drop kids off... I am taking the truck" I told him " NO FUCKING HELL YOU ARE TAKING MY TRUCK"
If you guys remember He left me last year, with a non-running vehicle ( the truck had an blown engine) Kids and I were stranded. So I took an loan and bought engine, had it install, and all that jazz......

So Matt got all pissed and made threats, all kinds of threats saying that I will be in Jail, kids will be taken away, I will lose everything... blah blah blah...... It go on and on..... Ryan actually made me go to the police station and explain everything and see what their advice would be....

They said since I have the proof of purchase on the engine, the tires and all that shit, I can take them out and take them out ASAP! so thats what we did. I drove to Kevin's house. He is one of my dad's buds... he owns an autobody shop.. so he and my dad took engine out and took the tires out. I called the police to check it out, verified it Well Matt and his dad decide to show up the same day and Bitched at me for taking it out.... The police told them I have every right and that theres nothing they can do.... and if they want to they can go through the court cause it is civil matter.... But they chancce of them getting it back is slim to none.... Since He abandonded the vehicle last year, and had not made any repairs since then either..... Well that didnt make him happy

Ryan showed up to show support me. Matt decide to get in with him, in front of the kids. .. it was crazy, and Ryan decide to leave, and Mykl wanted to go with him, so I let Mykl leave and Matt werent happy about that....

Lexi brawled her eyes out when Matt said those nasty words to me and Im standing there " thinking to myself... what the heck is going on why is he doing this to me, and in front of the kids" I kept saying, Don't talk to me, wait for the police to show up. Leave me alone, let me be.... I stayed by Lexi ...

The police showed up and said what I already knew that Matt cannot hold kids against me.. And if he wants the truck he can take it, but the engine and tires is legally mine. He can go through court ( civil matter) for these or work out with me and make it on paper with both our agreement on the price etc.....

Matt decide to work with me instead. So I left home with Lexi, and Matt went back home, without the truck....

What Matt have done to me is crazy, He tried to put bills ( his late bills were then transferred into my name cause we have the same address at the time) so I have over $1,000.00 in consumers bill alone and I got my electric shut off during winter. It was awful. Ryan paid all that for me and it got back on.

Kids told Ryan and I when they got back from Matt's house that they do NOT want to go back there, because Matt is being abusive. He make Mykl sleep on the hardwood floor , on the 2nd floor right beside the staircase every night he was there. That is NOT right. I also learned that he beat them with the metal head of the belt. Left some pretty marks on their booty. I also learned that Matt didnt let kids be kids, Go outside, learn things, make friends... He had them on the sofa all day long, watch tv, or watch him play games...

We have court coming up in August for Child support, and I am considering in going to FOC sometime this week and see what I can do to prevent Matt from having visitation ... it is just for temporary. I need to make sure my kids are SAFE first.....

I am also thinking about having the kids see a therapist. Maybe they can get more out if they talk to someone that they don't know. This is frustrating.

See that's kind of stress I shouldnt have... If Matt isnt being so dumb! Some days I want to strangle the shit out of him, and some days Im like beating myself over it.. What kind of father I pick for my kids.... I know he do love them, I know that for a fact. But his actions are wrong.... and it is pushing the kids away. He is becoming crazy.... and dangerous.

Other than Matt situation, I am now car less once again ( Truck is still sitting at Kevin's house) but Ryan told me that he don't want me to be carless so he went and looked at cars, and came to me with 3 different vehicle. a 2009 Saturn Vue, a 2010 Jeep Compass Sport and or 2011 Dodge Caliber. Now these vehicles isnt as big as my Explorer, but they are right size for me... I dont need anything big, but I dont want small either ( so I said no to cars) I like Saturn Vue a lot, and then Ryan had the dealer bring this 2011 Dodge Caliber here yesterday, and I fell in love. I hope we can get it, we will find out for sure tomorrow after Ryan gets out of work, if we do get it, we probably will drive it home.

Ryan is being so wonderful, so supporting, and he is there for me and kids. He always put us first before anything else. He is FAMILY person and doesnt like to go out and drink. Since we have been together ( november) we have been doing more of family outing than Matt and I have in last 10 years. Ryan took us to Michigan Adventure 3 times, this summer ... took us to Cedar Point. We went to two Zoo, bowling alleys, Arcades and Movies Theater countless times. Kids adore him. Everytime he gets home from work, Mykl will jump on him and said he misses him so much!

Oh I forgot to mention this, for Fathers day ( Mykl made this at school) and came home with it and gave Ryan a sculpture and a letter. The letter read " Dear Ryan, I know you not my dad but you kinda like my dad. Happy Father's Day" Under that is 4 different pictures of the times they did ( arcade, football tossing, Wrestling and Video games) Then in the back, it read " I made this today at school for you, I could miss you when you die or leave, Love Mykl"

It made Ryan very happy. :)

Time is running out. SO I have to go, but Ill try to update as much as I can, but its hard considering all things that is going on right now. But I will try.