A Winner that Loses in Clarity!

In my life I have learned that things can go from good to bad in a matter of seconds.
Which is why live as if I have never won. Metaphorically of course! As much as I thought I had turned a page and leeped into my happy ending. I have just reached the middle with all the boring part of the story. Where the character continues to make the same mistake or when the story kind just seems like a bad written essay. Well thats me! My family had gone from here to there in a matter of a week which is a new record of course. I am not surpriced at all as much as I push to win, I get so close and I miss it by a few seconds. I wish I had a family that cared for me everyday and not just when I am doing something good. More like something they can show off! I wish they called me. Do not misunderstand me as much as I wish I had that I am also glad they arent. They have always been bipolar with me. I am used to it now but at times I am so glad I dont have them around to treat me like shit everyday. I have time to do me and be me without judgement. I doesnt change the fact that I want my pack. I guess we win the battles we need and lose the ones we dont.