I'm the A**hole in Clarity!

My little sister and I have never seen eye to eye from death wishes, knife pulling, and more. We have never been each others fan, but tonight was different. After having a baby she has become pretty insightful which is crazy since just last year she was going down the rabbit hole. It is crazy to see how much life can change in a blink of an eye. I found myself shocked by her new profound wisdom. She had open my eyes to a new way of thinking. Her drunken words exactly “I love you but you are an ASSHOLE and a BITCH.” Followed by “but your a caring and genuine one”. As much as I thought that would strike a nerve, I found myself so defined by her statement. I am that ASSHOME, as much as people around me hate to realize would always be there for them even when they never are for me. I am that BITCH for staying true to who I am and not feeling sorry about it. In my attempt to be a good daughter, sister, niece, grand-daughter, etc I have found myself in the hot seat more times than I can count. Every attempt to go above and beyond to make everyone happy, lead me to always ending up with the short stick. As another margarita went down.. 2 more sentences really stood out. “Sometimes you just have to be a guest” and “If its not your camera just stand for the picture”. Meaning to take a step back and just live in the moment. Stop doing things that no one asked you to do. Who would have thought my drunk sister would be the therapiest I needed.