I currently have a high chance miscarriage in this pregnancy the doctor told me to get rid of stressful things out of my life. My best friend of 23 years Mandy found out I was pregnant and tried to call me to tell me how to be a mom. CPS took all 3 of her children she didn’t even keep one of her children for 2 days days because her bipolar disorder made her in the wrong frame of mind. She refuse to feed her child or visit the children after they were born.She refuse to breastfeed or keep them in her room. Due to neglect CPS stepped in and gave her children a better life with her Aunt Priscilla. I am grateful her Aunt Priscilla stepped up to raise Mandys kids. Her kids are doing wonderfully without her.
My husband told Mandy that her being toxic isn’t healthy for the baby. He knows I have been debating on cutting ties with her for some time. Mandy started cussing my husband out simply because he said hi Mandy how are you. He didn’t deserve the attack. She called him a fat fuck. Said he was going be a bad dad. Accused him of having an affair even though she has no evidence. She quickly got quiet when I reminded Mandy how she hasn’t told her husband Bobbi about her boyfriend Jeremy.
Mandy kept cussing Talan they kept arguing I couldn’t get a word in between them. Mandy told me I had to pick between my husband or her. She said if I hung up on her our friendship is over. I told her that’s a great idea. I told her I am going to raise my child around less toxic friends. I hung up on her she called threatened to beat my husband. Threatened to shoot my husband because he hung up the phone. She threatened to call CPS to get my child took away. I am not even a month pregnant yet. I told Mandy it’s time for her to grow up. This isnt junior high anymore. I love her but have a nice life. I blocked her on Facebook.
I have been meaning to cut ties with her for some time. She loves to cuss,fight, creates drama and tries to break up families for her personal amusement. It was cute in junior high but with the baby coming I don’t fear cutting ties with people for a better life.
I called my other best friend Tella.We been friends for 17 years to check on her. Tellas 12 year old son died earlier last year. She tried to do the best she could to adapt to Ryan’s unexpected passing. Ryan died from ruptured intestine and heart attack. Tella said she is going to the psych unit for mental help for a while. I told her I am proud that she is accepting the help she needs. I hope her visit goes well.
Tella asked me if she was a good mom. No Tella you are an amazing mom. Death cannot take your love for your child away. Tella loved that kid more than life itself. Ryan was so fortunate to have Tella. She was so attentive, loving and she was made for motherhood. Tella is living with the guilt of his passing. Tella is the example of what a mom should be. I am proud she is my friend. She is the positivity I want in my child’s life. Tella is my support system. My ride or die. I love her so much and I hope she feels better soon.
When the baby is born she is one of the few people allowed in the room after he or she is born. Tella told me she is so excited to have another baby to love. I cried alone thinking she will never be able to see her Ryan again. My heart goes out to her.
I have known of this pregnancy since the 21st. This baby isn’t even born yet but it is already making me and my husband better people. We are removing toxic people, trying to get healthier,we are straightening our lives out all over a tiny group of cells that has the potential to survive and change our entire lives. I know I talk about my pregnancy a lot. This is new and exciting.
I keep praying that today when I go into the obgyn that I hear a heartbeat. This child was unexpected but wanted more than anything we have ever wanted. We want to grow up and give this child a better life than we ever had. We are not our mistakes. We are our future together. Please little baby make me a momma.
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