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I’m tired of spending 10+ min a night so again, fast.
Philosophy is no longer so cool, it’s cool but not that much. Reading or learning philosophy depresses me so I’ll prolly stop and live the dumb live I was planning, just being a bit over the average in knowledge. It’s not even like I’m wise or philosophically intelligent anyways.
Ok so B was nice today, we sat together in English and he even sat w me on language class instead of sitting w S (he actively looked for sitting next to me). Long story short, we talking this afternoon (bout Marco, who is most surely a nymphomaniac I think and that’s what I told the California haters, and later about how he wants to fall in love with someone but can’t find) and he sent an audio like complaining there’s no one to crush for and he mentioned many people. DO YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID BOUT ME. “Of course there’s you but you inspire me so much [confidence/comfort] that I need us to stay as friends” He destroyed me in seconds. Friend one before even trying. And then he talked bout his hookup as well. I had to stop myself from telling Laura bout this today. I don’t want to tell anyone that I like B, it would just make things harder for him, maybe just the 3s and that’s it. That’s my life great.
I felt kinda ugly today. It’s my face and my hair, I wanna either cut it short or get it super long, and I wannabe get white stripes as well. The braids didn’t look too bad but they gave me more work.
Training today was supposed to be easy but I had a horrible time, I’m extremely stiff. I’m a stretch and hopefully sleep.
I wanna burn stuff w B and go to that camp and I’m idealising stuff and I wannabe leave that camp w my first kiss on his pocket. I’m a catalogue this as my true, first crush, coz it’s not even normal what I feel for him.
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