Not me in 2023

Not me gagging over Rihanna’s halftime show (will explain later)

Not me DoorDashing Panera for lunch even though it’s less than 5 minutes from my house.

Not me ignoring all the things I should be doing around the house and actually enjoying my day off for once. Fuck them responsibilities.

Not me savorrrriinnnggg every minute of peace and quiet right now.

I have so many fires to put out when I go back to work tomorrow and I just don’t care about any of them. I’ll figure it out.

Maybe the lexapros are starting to kick in. Though I’m still having some yucky anxiety in the mornings. Thought about taking a Xanax this morning but ended up just working past it.

Ok why do I love Rihanna’s halftime show? So many reasons. I know a lot of people were really underwhelmed by it. I wanted to see it because the choreographer is amazing. She choreographed JLo’s Super Bowl halftime performance, which I think ate. See how cool I am with all the new lingo?

So I think this show just exuded that you can have a killer female performer and she doesn’t have to strip or be half naked or have dancers dry humping each other to put on a good show. Don’t get me wrong… I don’t have anything against that, personally. I love dance as an artistic medium. I love when people are able to express themselves and their sexuality through dance. It’s incredibly empowering.

So the fact that Rihanna was fully clothed, her dancers were only midriff bearing, was a statement in and of itself. Some of my friends were commenting that she didn’t do anything, she was hardly dancing. We all now know she is pregnant and maybe she’s not feeling well or maybe she is restricted as to what she can physically do when she performs. Also, you try singing and dancing simultaneously....

Let us not forget that Rihanna is a billionaire. She is a BOSS BITCH and I love her for it. I love her fire, I love the look in her eyes like she knows people will hate on her and she gives zero fucks. I want that mentality. I want her to rule the world. Like honestly. So people can bash her as much as she wants, she doesn’t have to explain herself, she is not obligated to please us all. Like bitch goes and does what she wants and doesn’t look back or question herself and I applaud that.

I have no clue why I felt the need to come on here and spout all this.

My parents made more racist comments about how the boys were afraid to watch a cartoon where all the characters were Black? Like what? Anyway, I think they were referring to “The Proud Family” reboot on Disney+. Which I haven’t watched, but I guess maybe my parents saw it advertised somewhere. They were telling me that the cartoon is “woke” (gross, stop) and all it talks about is how Black people built this country. To which my mother said, “They have history so skewed.”

Well.... would this country exist without Black people? Like our foundation and goods/services was based on their slave labor so.... it’s not wrong to say this country was built by Black people. My parents are so jaded by Fox News and all the conservative wing nuts they watch on YouTube. It’s disturbing.

Anywho. Panera is here and I am starving so I’ll go eat. I’m feeling almost manic right now. Impulsive but not dangerous. Like I want to go sit and do my cross stitch but I also want to go take a nap after lunch but I also want to go shopping? And I feel like I’m rambling and can’t stop my train of thought. So this is all fun.

Monday, amiright?

Last updated February 13, 2023