Keeping the pace going. in Trust the Journey pt 2

Hi,
So last year I had to order new pants around this time maybe i waited abit longer because in the winter months i can wear like black pants under my pants because it gets pretty cold.. Anyway I needed to size up because well I have thicker thighs and they rub against eachother in all my clothes I had it but it’s been a thing since I was in my teens. hips and thighs.. Anyway when i ordered my pants i was so disgusted in myself because I did not want to order up but I couldn’t seem to lose the weight to get back into my size.. well I started off fitting these pants but they were a little big but they fit nice.. Now these pants are too big if I didn’t have a belt they would fall down. I am going to wait to be back into my normal size before I order new ones and wearing a belt makes me feel pretty good because I can actually meassure how much I am losing.

At the start of this journey I did not fit into my belt anymore and i really need to fit with my body to get it on the last hole.. like my skin would be red and anyway I hated it. officially I am on the third belt hole sometimes the fourth it just depends how bloated I am. I havent weighed myself this week but as of last week I had lost 7lbs.. then because I knew i wouldn’t be weighing myself until like this saturday I kind of indulged a little. however because of the whole graffiti scare thing by the weekend I was back to being in check because I was so anxious I wasn’t eating alot.. Now Saturday will be the big tell.. I decided that I won’t really change things now till I hit a plateu.. that’s when you need to actually look at what your doing and then shape it up.. ofc I do plan to start working out I just need to get my life together from this whole graffiti thing but meal wise I am trying my best even though I am still going over I am still losing. Aslong as I am losing I am not going to worry about being perfect. life isn’t perfect but these are the days I need to committ myself soon it will be even harder to lose weight. I hear your 30s are your last chance to get it right after that it gets really hard.

Anyway there was something else I was going to talk about and now I forget hmm it must not be too important maybe it will come back to me the next time I come to write.