22:54
Really tired from cold.
I really feel like tomorrow is gonna be bad. It’s not like always, when I go pessimistic but I actually believe I can do it well, I now really believe it’s gonna go bad. Bad vibes.
We played trivial today. That reminded me of how much I hate this amnesia. I’m horrible at remembering names or people in general. I hate it, it makes me anxious.
I want to be more productive but doing anything requires energy and living with my family drains it everyday. I just end up playing video games all day long.
Brother talks and complains a lot. He just can’t shut the fuck up. And now mother gets mad n shi and all the consecuences affect me too. Istg if I have to rake my phone out at night or anything like that because of him ill kill him.
Felt kinda alone and down today. Also ugly.
Small reflection: I don’t WANT to do things like playing the guitar. I’d LIKE TO do those things. That difference is needed tk mark if we remember that quote: “if you want to do something, you’ll find a way to do it, if you really don’t want to, you’ll find excuses”
Just noises and sound of people in the house trigger me. I always have to be the first one to get up and the last one to go to bed
23:00
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