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So, ofc I didn’t talk like that to B at all, I almost didn’t even see him. Father was taking me away on car and he had gone there w 3 more friends. I felt tired the whole day and I’m still tired.
Bout the actual match thing, it was cool ig. Like I had a bit fun too, tho it was exhausting. Now that I think about the problems and questions from outside, they were literally easy af, but I think actually did right 4/6 and hopefully I managed to explain and get full point from 1 or 2. It was funny but it also got me angry because I could’ve easily nailed it but I didn’t. I was in my own thoughts.
Father makes me so much anxious, just his existance makes me uncomfortable. I could laugh or do anything around B because he could appear at any moment to pick me up.
I met and had dinner with the 3s, it was fun, very similar to the old times dancing on a living room n stuff, but it’s not 100% the same.
While on the subway, I was w one of B’s 3 friends. She was really quiet andtho she spoke perfectly, she had some sort of foreigner accent, but very unnoticeable and maybe it was even my imagination. She looked like a cool person. I’ll prolly never see her again and I don’t even remember her name, but it was one of the most comfortable silences of my life. That made me think about how we care about thing that are nearly about to end (my social interaction/relationship with her, tho it never actually started).
I really want to go to that part on that Friday and get drunk af and do things I’ll regret and lose my cool n my shit. I hope mom doesn’t make any weird faces or anything when I tell her bout the party so I can let myself drink. I wanna go crazy. I wamna be like the happy, cool people my age. (but still in my emo arc)
I’m kinda tired but tomorrow morning I’ll train too, I felt a bit thinner and better today, I didn’t braid my rat tails w the 3s and I’d still like to.
I’m really tired and sleepy.
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