A backdated story in Daily Diary

The day was good, started off with a good lecture at the university. Rest of the day went quite smooth but the evening and night felt like hell. It’s precisely the time when loneliness kicks in, especially when you’re an avid overthinker. The reason this time was the fact that that there was someone who vouched for me for around a year and the fact that I behaved rudely as I did not see future with her and yes there is no future with her but on one hand when mind knows all the facts the heart is just not ready to accept those in the moment. As there always comes some time when you crave for emotional support from someone, someone who listens to how your day was, someone who really is excited to talk to you no matter the topic. Now it’s just a day since I heard from her but it already feels like ages. Don’t know what this is. Is this love? or it’s just the habit of talking to someone daily?