In search of people who aren't shit in Metacognition

Looking back I think I’ve done a pretty good job cutting out all of the toxic and shitty people in my life. My sister never talks to me. My old friend never talks to me. ( Both of which are good by the way ). I don’t have any contact with....
Wait perhaps I’m just being a self-absorbed twat. Maybe I’m too quick to judge people or emphasize their negative characteristics? I’ve heard that it’s on you to find the good in people. Shit I mean it’s not like I’ve never thought of it before but… well I guess it matches well with the sense of disconnection I so often feel. I’ve heard this before. Damn A tried to warn me. I often felt that he was starting to leave me behind in the maturity and friend making department.
Fuck, it always seems like the same issues pop up again and again in my relationships. All of them. Obviously I suck at boundaries. Well whatever. I’m wiser and more knowledgeable than what I was back then.
How long has it been since I actually thought of myself as part of a group. I guess when me, L and E are together we kind of feel like a group. But imagine hanging out with any of their respective friend groups. Horror.