23:16
Im really tired and nothing is playing cause I’m panning on sleeping now.
I walked down to the neighborhood to see the 3s for a moment (well hang out again on Wednesday) and buy some birthday gift w S, B, I and Polo and M2. Remainder that I and M2 aren’t in good terms for that history on S birthday.
I had fun ngl, I really like hanging out with them but I got an attack again because I fl Ike an stranger with them, they are really lose friends and I’m like the foreigner. I wish to be part of that.
The happening that destroyed me wa whan B was really tired and kinda sad and said he had to tell us something but then he didnt. Started pushing him and he finally agreed to say it but we had to keep complete secret like it was some serious stuff. S, I and me were listening and he said he saw someone on the subway (a friend) and something more I didn’t get. They got it but I didn’t and that seemed to know a part of the story that I didn’t. When I tried to ask him to repeat that cause I didn’t hear it, he just didn’t elaborate on anything and didn’t hear me or smth. They were together, talking, and I felt like a ghost, nobody told me anything.
I’m destroyed, there’s math on gr tomorrow and Parrone’s birthday tomorrow, that’s what we bought today and like half the class is going, including S, B and I. I feel like crying a lot lately.
I also hate my body a lot lately.
I really want to be part of a group of friends, or have a best friend.
I am really sad and tired.
If someone texts me now, I just will not answer.
23:24
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