update in updates

bruh ngl forgot about this website so decided to update for myself.
still in school and ngl, anxiety is getting in control finally ! stuff that used to bother me or cause me to panic doesn’t rlly get in my head anymore, at the very least i just see em as an annoyance. finals week next week for me and honestly im pretty confident for the first time in a while lol, in the past all that fr just gave me so many panic attacks and long nights of me just absolutely bawling on the floor about smth so stupid.
i did have to get my meds altered and still have trouble takin em every day but i’m trying fr, i promised my doc last time i saw him that i would so fingers crossed. BAD THING tho i fr ghosted my therapist and haven’t seen her since a few weeks after my last entry pretty sure. i’m sorta torn cuz i don’t know if the therapy will help me at this point since i’m coping pretty fine on my own,,, idk
taking a break from all social platforms atm too, since i had sort of a whole thing of just… tired of being harassed and bullied and lowkey cyberstalked every single day, so honestly i’m just done. it’s been amazing so far honestly, i’ve been drawing/painting a lot and a LOT of my fav artists released new music lately so i’ve just been chillin fr. and bc of this break i can focus more on school as well.
still trying to find a new job, that still sorta gives me anxiety since i hate conversating w people for too long, so trying to find one that was similar to my last one.
anyway, life has been calmer for me overall, some bumps in the road ofc but im def on he road to getting better.