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I’m feeling pretty good actually. Obviously tired coz Thursday trainings are deadly but not too tired. Hall of fame playing today.
I get extreme mood swings, but vastisimous, like I can go from 100% to existential crisis in 5 minutes. I was really bad this week but I randomly feel better now.
I decided I would try to go out more and be more active, I wanna start living my own life. This week I started feeling like I was wasting my youth and it has to stop. Thinking about it makes me anxious due to my cronophobia but the best thing I can do is meeting people and doing this I enjoy. I decided to go out more, and try to read and watch more things I enjoy.
It felt like a gift from destiny, I checked my phone and S was asking me if I could hang out tomorrow, I obviously replied “I think I can” and know I’m going with B, his friend “RedheadJ” and his girlfriend to his house. Like wtf, I’m actually very excited. Another thing was that one of the things he said was that his girlfriend wanted to meet me. Again wtf, nobody ever “wants to meet me”, it felt weird but I think we’ll hit it off since everything I’ve heard of her sounds exactly like me.
I really need new friends because the 3s are both in another school now so there’s no was we meet so often, and B and S’s group was exactly the kind of friend group if like to be in. They’re mature and kind ofc but they also have fun and S has the same goddamn humor as me.
I feel a bit more comfortable with myself today so I’m feeling great wtf. Also jojos came out today, prolly gonna marathon this weekend or on holidays.
I really want and need to meet new people and socialize, I’m not doing anything locked at home, and this is a perfect chance. I hope I get better, they are also they kind of people you can talk to. Im clarifying again I don’t wanna vent but they are talkative and sharing problems is surely OK for them. I wish to help S with his insecurities and B with his lack of motivation with many things, while that friendly action would help myself with my major depressive disorder. It’s a win win and my life would become happier. I’m feeling optimistic.
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