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Legs destroyed, 2012 playing, my head hurts a bit but nothing more.
That race was hella fun like I really enjoyed it. I didn’t do it alone but I still got a good time, 2nd place after B. My legs hurt after that and training after just destroyed me but that’s what was supposed to happen. Things that happened today:
Well first, Martha 2 saw I had a great time on the race, and saw me doing a pull up relatively easily (there was a bar and everyone on class was being called, yk, for the lols) and literally said: “Is there something your bad at?”
Okay that was weird because I felt extremely good from hearing that cause you know I need to be the best and stuff, but again I got the fear of people hating me for being “too” good (in my most toxic opinion you can never be too good). But well that’s as always. I’m also gonna do arms gym now cause S and B had strong arms and I want to have them too.
And that takes me to the next thing.
Remember like 5 days ago or so that I said I didn’t like B, well I do. But I think I wrote bout this before, and the thing is I do not wish to be in a relationship with him, but rather be him o have his qualities . He’s sociable, funny, intelligent, average to handsome and pretty sporty if you forget bout that ashtma lmao. There’s no way I’m that sociable but it’s OK, I think I’m seem as funny already, for intelligence is weird because in academically smart but I fuck up stuff and emotionally and everything I’m like a 60yo giving advice, the, handsome we could say I’m working on it and I’m literally dying everyday to be that sporty and resistant and strong and stuff (fun fact, I was thinking bout B’s body during today’s series because he has a figure I really like).
Well, I “fell in love” with B, that’s it, now I’m jealous and I’m gonna do gym to have his arms (even tho I’m incapable of working) (his arms are goddamn I gotta admit those veins are hot).
I still hate public speaking, I just remembered because there’s English oral exposition tomorrow w Reimon.
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