I have had prn induced erectile dysfinction for 2 years now (more like 6 years but I used Viagra to perform, now that's stopped working and I realised I have a problem). I am currently on day 58 of no PMO (Prn, Msturbation, Orgsm). So far I haven't watched any P, but have looked at some pictures, I have M'ed 5 times in 2 binges. The first after 20 days and the second after 40 days. So I haven't gone more than 20 days at a time with M'ing. Which for me is a record, I used to M almost every day and multiple times on some days.
I have been with my wife for 8 years, living together for 5 of them. I never used to have a problem getting and keeping an erection until P slowly took over my life. I have always M'ed a lot even when living with my wife but it never impacted our love life, until I found I couldn't get it up. So, I turned to meds to help and the little blue pill kept me going for another few years. During this time my use of P got more frequent and harder and harder in content. I started watching things and getting turned on by things that used to disgust me. It got to a point where all I could think of P and when next I could M and O. By then I was sick and tired and needed a break.
Which is when I discovered about nofap and other sites like it. To see there were other men out there going through the same thing I was going through was a massive weight off my shoulders. I am still in the midst of the struggle and am currently suffering from dead dick which happens to nearly every man when they go through a flatline in their reboot. I was overstimulated for so long, now with no artifical stimulation my dick and brain has shut down, I am waiting for it to reboot and for my normal libido to return.
Before the reboot I was even sick and tired of O'ing it was just a release, like a junkie getting his fix. It didn't feel good anymore, it just made me able to function better until the urge to scratch came irresistable again. After day 20 of the reboot I had a relapse and M'ed to O without P and I must say the orgasm I experienced was longer and more intense than any I can remember. As I have never gone more than a couple of says without release since discovering M'ing when I was a kid, before I could even ejaculate. After O'ing I was literally shaking, which explains why I binged and had another the next day and another the day after.
My second relapse was a different experience. I had been drinking and having horny thoughts, albeit with a dead dick. My wife was away so was lying in bed furiously trying to make something happen, and it did. I O'ed whilst still soft which was upsetting. So i tried again the next day and managed to get half way hard before again O'ing.
Safe to say I'm going to wait until my body is ready this time.
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