Wednesday, Sept. 14, 2022 in Last Year of Middle School ~ 8th grade ~ 2022-2023~

I was listening to the playlist Moos made till I got to 1st period. In 1st period, we were getting ready for the Socratic Seminar for Copper Sun. I wrote down my answers to some questions on post-its. Then, in 2nd period, we went over the study guide. I got most of the questions right. The test is tomorrow!!!! AAAAA PANIC!!!! In 3rd period, I didn’t finish much of anything. Too busy writing this and listening to the playlist Moos made :) At lunch, the first thing Myah said to me was “Where’s Moose Man?” I told her that he said his friend is going through a hard time so he was gonna sit at his table today. I hope he sits with us tomorrow. Last night, I wrote him a note and I wanna make sure I can give it to him today. Then I went to pride where I did some math. Then, I went to science where apparently not that many people finished the assignment from yesterday. We discussed that and then did a review of the questions, and got out science flipbook for the layers of the earth. Then I went to gym. Moos told Brayden and Nolan that we’re together. Travis doesn’t know. Kiarra does. Then Moos told me that he has had depression. I feel really bad. I don’t think he knows how important he is to us all. I just wanna give him a hug aaaaa. I feel so bad. I remember what it was like. My hope is that I can make it better. Today we had to play football. Luckily, my team had Kiarra, Brayden, Travis, Nolan, and Moos. I sat next to Moos while we waited and I was tempted to scoot closer. Especially when he asked Nolan if they could switch seats so he could sit by me. While we were sitting together, I put the note in his pocket. We said “I love you” to each other a lot <3 football was ok- Nolan, Moos, and I kinda just ran around and talked. I caught the ball but then was tagged soon after. Moos made a touchdown!!! I came back from the locker room and Moos said he read the note, then said that he loves me. Then, we had to go back to our pods so I went to 9th period. In social studies we just took notes. Then, I walked out of the pod with Moos and the rest of the group. Kiarra shoved me into Moos’s back, and I felt bad- geez I’m stupid. Moos and I said bye and I did this weird type of hug thing- he wasn’t expecting it so I attempted to give him a hug and it was kinda awkward. While waiting for the bus, I saw Moos made a new playlist, called True Love. It contains the song “Closer” which was the song I danced to for the 2nd grade Hickory Ridge talent show!!! I told him that, then I said “I’m not exactly Christian, but if that’s not a sign that we’re meant to be, I don’t know what is <3” His response was “I love you so much <3” DANG IT- I’M CRYING HAPPY TEARS AGAINNNNN ~calm down Olivia~ I told Josh and he said that he better not try anything. -_- Seriously dude. Speaking of which, Nolan had a hilarious response when Moos told him about us. He said “You two? I’ll be at your guys’ baby shower. I’ll be making out with the hosts, and the babies” I was studying for math till about 8:30. Then I went upstairs and Moos said there’s something he wants to do but he doesn’t know if it’s too early. I have been wanting to hold his hand for a while now, so I said that I think I might know what it could be. He had me guess. I said “Mayyyybeeeeee holding hands?” and he said “close but no” I was surprised by that answer. Then he said “but we can do that too if you want” I asked him what he wanted to do, and he said “a kiss” PANIC MODE AAAA! I’ve never done that before! What would I even do?!?! I’m not against it… Kinda excited ngl, however, I’m self-conscious about doing something like that. I don’t really trust people, but I’m putting all of my trust and all of my heart into Moos. It’s scary, but I have to learn to trust people. I trust him so much, it’s hard to because of some of my past friends though. I know he’s different than them though. I get a special feeling around him that I get with nobody else. He said maybe on the 24th when we go skating. I went to bed around 10:30. Mom and dad fell asleep on the couch so we didn’t do much.