i miss it in my life

I kinda just reflected back to how me and this one person were so innocently in love. It was really my best days like he would make me smile and all other joyous emotions. I don’t know if he liked me the same way as I liked him because I usually am one to put effort into all my relationships. Maybe I just have a hard time thinking anybody could love me or I just have serious trust issues but in thinking that way it kinda gives me a protective layer. Or maybe its because my inner child self never received that kind of love so its hard to adjust to it. But anyways it felt so good to have him in my life he was never too overly sexual which im not a fan of. It was just right. He’d tell me about his mental health and how he was kinda struggling then as time went on he would rarely text or anything. I kinda just gave him space and he would always apologise for replying late to my texts and everything and then after a few months we would just grow distant and more distant. Even so we are still on good terms even if we aren’t romantically involved. However I miss him I still miss us. He was genuinely the first man to be such a gentleman to me and make me feel like a loveable human being instead of some sexual object. But I really do wish him the best from the bottom of my heart.