Father's Day Weekend! in Starting Over

This weekend was really hard on me. It started off pretty good, but as things to, it turned bad pretty quick. I went Saturday morning to get my hair colored with some highlights.

Everything was fine and I was jamming to some of my favorite songs on my ipod...when all of a sudden.....it hit me. Daddy is gone and I won't have a Father to celebrate with tomorrow. I couldn't stop the tears as they began to flow. I didn't know how I was going to continue driving the way I was feeling. I was able to regain my composure until I was just about a mile from home and then the flood gates open again. I drove up and got out of the Jeep and walked in the house. Keith was sitting at the computer and immediately stood up and asked, What's wrong? I explained everything to him. I went to lay down for a lil while that ended up being about a 3 hour nap. I guess I needed it, because when I woke up I felt better.

I mean, I know that I have his Dad to celebrate with now. We had a great time yesterday. We took his parents out to eat and even made a Lowe's stop along the way. It's just so different that I couldn't celebrate with MY Daddy!!! I guess I was just being a little selfish, but it was so hard for me. I think it's combined with the fact that on the 23rd...in just a week....he will be gone ONE YEAR!! I miss him so much. There isn't a day that goes by that he doesn't cross my mind!!!!

Life's hard, but I am tougher!!!!!!! I just have to keep reminding myself of this!!!! Take care and God bless!! love to all!!!!