Anyone out there. in New here

I feel like I need a connection. Yet it’s hard bc I know I should not seek validation from others. However, I feel like what I’m wanting is a friendship or a companion who understands me. I’m not saying my husband don’t. He just thinks differently. I want to feel like I don’t have to apologize or that I don’t always have to explain myself. I feel like I was trying to force a connection that wasn’t there and now I’m spinning in the wind.