She Glows in Coming clean

I dont have instagram anymore. Its weird but necessary. I waisted a lot of time on that app and im ashamed to admit it but i did a lot of stalking. Well im not sure if its stalking. It sounds like it though because i couldn’t help but notice when she would post something or do a story. She obviously knows because i was probably always the first one looking at her story.
I really messed up with this one. We go to the same church and we hang around the same people and are around the same age. She had a thing for me. I caught her staring a few times and she caught me. But nothing happened because i didn’t do anything. I couldn’t and i shouldn’t have because i wasn’t ready for something like that. Especially at that time.
There was one time that i kinda did though. Unfortunately she was seeing my friend at the time. Talk about awkward. They were not dating long. I guess the dad didn’t approve so it was called and he told me she was not really into it anyways. I guess can move in on her now but it would be awkward. I think that ship has passed now.
I saw her recently at a service. The first time in a long time because of covid and my lack of attending; but wow she was glowing. She looks better in person than she does on Instagram. She is the opposite of that meme. She is absolutely beautiful inside and out. Her smile, her laugh, her strong faith in god. She is not all holy though. She is real. She is someone who knows her faults. She knows she is not a perfect Christian by any means but does her best and prays for forgiveness. At least thats what i think she prays for. (Yes i do take a peak at her when we pray) She is just awesome and i just want her in my life. She is definitely going to be that someone who got away. Man she was glowing though.