I Think I Need Help in Unafraid

I’ve been putting it off for awhile, but… I think I should get my mental shit diagnosed. Something’s wrong with me. I’m not saying that in self-deprecating way, it’s just a fact. There’s no way these feelings are normal. There’s no fuckin’ way people feel this way - constantly - every single day.

Bipolar disorder?
Depression?
Definitely probably some undiagnosed ADHD or some shit like that in there.
Anxiety disorder?

I don’t know. I’m not a fucking doctor. But I know it’s not supposed to feel this way all the time. I’ve been putting it off for as long as I can. Just thinking, you know, maybe it’ll get better. Maybe I don’t need medicine. Maybe I don’t need help. Maybe I can muscle throught it on my own.

That mindset has done a lot more bad than it has good. And there’s only so much that self-medicating with weed can fix.

My biggest fear is I try to get help… and it still doesn’t work.