Well I dont know how long its been since I last posted… doesn’t matter either really but i thought i was “better”, as i always do, and didn’t need to express myself like this anymore.
Well, since then maybe overlapping slightly, I’ve been through 2 relationships and haven’t got over either of them.
I miss CB so fucking much and IC was just a rebound but i caught such strong feelings that it just fucked me up more. I think i just get lonely, I’m such an emotional person that if i dont have someone who cares and i can care about it all just builds up.
I worry im just falling down the rabbit hole again with A even though i know im not ready…
I just want to talk to CB, i miss him so much even though its so unhealthy for me.
Im so in my head about this that its impacting my work, the derealisation is kicking me so hard, i lose days and lie about progression because i dont want to be a disappointment.
I dont want to be a disappointment.
I need some one to tell me they’re proud and mean it.
Weight: 20 st 2
Vibe: Cigarettes and Cartier - Siiickbrain
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