I just created an account a few hours ago. I haven’t checked all of this software’s features yet. I haven’t had the luxury to explore. All I know is I’ve been awake for 22hrs, surfing through the web what would be the best platform to release what I’m feeling because I don’t have anyone else to talk to. I’ve cried 3 times for the past 5 hours now. Funny thing is I don’t even know why. I was innocently scrolling through my feed when a heavy pressure fell to my chest and made its way out through my eyes. I hate that I didn’t feel “lighter” right after. I suppose I’ve been internally battling issues for the past months but I keep putting off. We all are. But isn’t that what makes us interesting?
I’m at a breaking point. I’m bottling up my emotions because I’m afraid to feel it. I don’t want to feel lonely. I don’t want to feel sad. But the more I avoid it, the more it creeps its way into me. It’s cold. It’s hollow. It’s heavy enough to make it difficult for me to breathe. I feel like I’m chocking. Drowning in my own thoughts. In whatever it is that’s wrapped around me.
But what’s my point in coming here? I’m seeking a safe space to “let it out”. Maybe talking about it would ease the pain. Moreover, maybe someone out there feels like this, too. And maybe we won’t feel so alone.
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