I have completed chemotherapy 6 of what should be 12. It'll be nice when I feel like I can start a countdown until I'm done, having more completed than left.
Before my next infusion, I'm having another pulmonary function test. Bleomycin, one of the four chemotherapy agents I'm being given, can cause lung damage. I've not been having any symptoms, but they always check just to be on the safe side. Then, after my 8th infusion, I get another PET scan, which is supposed to look more or less normal by that point. Despite how amazing my last scan was (which I still want to put on here. I'll get to it eventually), the anxiety is still starting up and will only get worse until I get my results. Bleh.
Despite all this, I am thankful for my cancer. Yep, that's what I said. I'm not saying I'm happy or thankful that I have cancer, obviously, but the more times I go to my appointments and see all the other patients in the infusion center, I am thankful I have this cancer. It's a weird thing to say or think but after looking at people who look so sick, who are wasting away from their cancer, their treatment or both...this is easy. I mean, it isn't easy but, as far as cancer goes, this is easy. The nurse practitioner I saw said she's happy whenever I come in. I'm experiencing minimal side effects. I'm strong and healthy. Hell, I've gained at least 11 pounds since I started chemo because I can eat well. I can go out the day after chemo and spend hours on my feet without feeling too exhausted. I'm lucky. Last infusion, a few seats away from me was this college aged kid with colon cancer. I can't even imagine. After I was done with my chemo, I felt well enough to make a stop to get some new house shoes (I was dumb and got flip flop blisters so I wanted something that wouldn't rub on them while they heal) and there in Famous Footwear was a mother with her child, couldn't have been more than 8 years old, who was bald and wearing a mask. Sobering and another reminder of how much worse things could be.
And on a much happier and more adorable note, here's a video of Mogget playing with one of Stanley's chew thingies. Unfortunately, I can't just put it in the entry because it isn't a youtube video, so you'll have to click the link.
So much cute!
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