Everything I've wanted to say since you've been gone. in To not be here

I don’t wanna jinx it but I think I’m getting over you although it’s going very quickly. Maybe I just got tired of the way you made me feel or maybe, I spent so many nights crying over you while we were together that I don’t have anymore tears left in me. Either way, I wish you the best in life and hopefully she treats you better than I ever could. I thank you for a lot of the things you taught me about love even if most of them were poorly shown. I am finally able to talk to people without being scared and I finally made a lot of friends. I’m also taking time off of social media and I’m trying to better myself for me. I’m opening up more :) and I’m starting to be okay with the world again. I admit that I was a little hard to love and I was difficult most of the time with all my emotions and wanting affection. I wish I was able to see you everyday through the times we were together and I wish you were able to keep every promise you made. I understand that you won’t ever be coming back but I hope you know that I don’t hold ANY hate for you and if you ever needed anything I’d still be here, I promise. Our time together is obviously done but I hope life is great and gets even better for the both of us.
- from “me”