Todays unknown events? in To not be here

I woke up and got ready for school as usual. The feelings of wanting to be alone came in and out of my mind repeatedly. On the bus I felt as though I just wanted to stay home and be alone. Why be at school when you only have 2 friends who you only see in P.E. and at lunch? Biology was my first period. It went the same as usual, I was quiet and bored the whole time and I could only focus on my shoes hitting the floor as i swung them up and down while sitting on my seat. The bell finally rand and I went on the my second period class. English. The hall I went through was really crowded. Seeing everyone pass me so fast felt like I was unreal. It felt as though I wasn’t there and neither were they, like neither one of us existed. I get to class and I sit in my seat. My seat is across a boy who wears glasses with a clear frame. Im not really sure how to spell his name (Ryedar? Ryidar? Rydar?) He told us once that it ended wit “AR” but his name is pronounced the same as “rider”. I felt something other than loneliness for once.