Numb in My Escape

Its bad. Had a breakdown, it was a bad one. I hate it because I was doing so good finally yet now look a sad girl who thinks her problems are so bad when there’s people a lot worse than her. It still hurts though and I feel like a disappointment not only to myself but to my parents… my sister who I want to be there for yet how can I be there for her when i’m not even here for myself. I can pretend like i’ve done before so no one can see how I truly am its better for everyone that way.