Tired and cranky today in Another Open Diary refugee

Tired and cranky today... I was feeling pretty good, so tried to go without meds again and didn't make it past Day 2. Especially since a storm rolled in last night. I was in so much pain I took tramadol AND my emergency meds even though the few pills I have left are all there will ever be - my new GP won't prescribe them. Went back on the stupid anti-inflammatory pills this morning and I feel much better. But I'm tired - I couldn't sleep last night so I went to bed super late and got up at the normal time. I couldn't wean myself off the stupid cane either. I walked around without it for a couple of days and ended up so stiff and sore that I could barely walk at all. I wish it was just because I'm not used to the exercise, but it was getting worse, not better. I'm having trouble getting up from sitting, and my legs are sooooo stiff when I start moving it takes five minutes to loosen them up so I can walk. Grrr this sucks. I want to be NORMAL!

Also cranky because the landlord's put up HUGE 'no trespassing towaway zone' signs in the middle of everyone's lawns. Why on earth couldn't they have put them onto the privacy fence behind the driveway? I hate it - it's unfriendly and worse it's UGLY. Oh well, I guess I need the reminder that this isn't really 'our' place. I just live here... Ugh ugh ugh.

Staying out of John's way this afternoon because I feel like picking a fight and he's overtired as well... he has to go to work early tomorrow, work late, and he thinks he'll probably be working through the weekend as well... and next week he's working late on my birthday. Sigh... Last month I signed up to do coffee hour at church on May 26 but I'm going to go cross my name off the list. I don't really want to do it any more, and it looks like that'll be the only time I have with John to celebrate my birthday. I tried to find a nice Sunday brunch buffet but there aren't any anywhere around here - looks like we'd have to go all the way down to West Palm and that's too far. So that's out.

Okay, I warned you I was grouchy... also lonely. The phone rang and I ran to answer it but it was just a wrong number... nobody EVER calls me except John. Sigh...