Pilot in Stuck feelings

Yk I have always been somebody who wants to let things out of her mind, whether it be bursting out or just putting everything on a plate. Whether it be to a person or a device or a diary. But you know no matter how hard you try to let some things off your chest, the burden somehow keeps to weigh you more and more. It’s just one of those days where I am actually confused about what I am doing with my life. Being only 15 I don’t think that’s something I should be thinking about or that’s what most of you think so. But for me, for my parents and for all of “wellwishers” this is a do or die time for me. Do I know what I wanna do with my life? Do I know what stream to pursue next year? There are so many questions yet to be answered but somehow I still wanna give time to myself. There is a part of me which just wants a break from all the burden- the expectations of people. So here I am trying this new anonymous thing, giving this shot as I hope, will be that break from all the burden in my life.