My son is in Florida, I'm in New Mexico :'( I'll be able to call him later today.
I lost my last pregnancy. Actually it was a tubal that rectified itself...lucky for me. I had 2 ultrasounds. The first showed nothing even with multiple positive tests. The second showed some interesting shadows in a spot that should not be holding an embryo. They did another blood draw on me and a lower sensitivity urine test that came out negative. The nlood test showed my levels had dropped...so that was that. No invasive procedures needed....nature ran her course and I don't think we'll try again after that.
Today my step mother called me. A couple years ago, I realized I wanted nothing to do with her. She was no great influence in my life. Only called if she needed something from me and overall I can't stand the life she chooses for herself. I wouldn't choose her to be a part of my life if it weren't for my father marrying her. She thrives on drama. They're STILL married legally, though they haven't lived together for about 15 years. I picked up and hung up so I would not have to waste my time on the voicemail. I've asked her to stop contacting me multiple times. She followed the call with a text. I reminded her that we're not actually family and that I don't want to talk to her. She said I can't do anything about it. I responded that I'd file a complaint of harassment against her. She said she's just trying to be nice...I said then stop contacting me and thanked her in advance. Hopefully that's the end. I honestly believe that she just gets bored and decides to rattle my cage in those moments.
I have mommy issues lol. My bio mom recently tried facebooking me. This came within a couple days of my brother telling me that she got engaged to a man in a wheelchair. Both of us thinking "wonder what's in it for her?" My brother unloaded on me. A couple years ago he'd tried to kill himself. I had no idea. He has been handling our mother for years. I ended any further attempts of having a relationship with her about 5 years ago. He has finally taken some steps back from her as well and realized that she's toxic. I never want to know how it feels to know your kids view you as someone you have to "handle"...it's terrible. She once told me I was THE REASON for everything bad that's happened in her life. Thanks mom...love ya too. I guess cutting ties with her was easier for me than it could be for him. He spent more years with her. She left me (and him) with my father (not his dad) when I was 5. I can only imagine how my brother felt being dumped on a stranger that way. No explanation...just disappeared. Contact was hit and miss for years. I had 3 summer visits with her at age 8, 11, and 14. At 11 & 14 I ended up staying at my brother's for the majority of it due to the volatile nature of hers and my relationship. I don't know. I can't put myself back into that mode. I have no attachment to her. I'm very close with my father and I guess that feels like enough to me...
I feel a little lighter now. These are things I don't typically share...
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