I never thought I’d write somewhere open like this, but in the spirit of doing something different, I am giving it a go.
Sometimes I feel like I am running out of time, like I am trying to live more than one life at once and I can’t keep up with speed of time.
Today is a week into my holidays, and I feel like I have yet to relax, there are constantly people around me reminding me of the world outside, the world I need to make decisions about, the world that has heeps and countless of claims on my time which I, in my conscience, know that I should be dealing with.
Getting off from work is easy enough, but finding peace from ones worries is an entirely different story.
At the moment I am mostly worried about the people around me. In many ways I am a very lucky person, being surrounded by such kind hearted and wellmeaning people as I am. They do worry me a lot though, since the world is rarely a merciful place for such people, naive as they are about other peoples intentions. It makes me very frustrated, sometimes I get a bit annoyed with them, much to my shame, since I know it is by no fault of theirs, but it makes me nervous that their naivity might get taken advantage of or ridiculed by others. In reality, if I could, I probably would like to wrap them in bubbleplast, selfish as I am, so I could keep my people safe from the world.
Timewise I always run a bit short though, despite what good intentions I might have, I never seem to have the time to do what I should or be there as I ought for my relations, it’s always in the back of my conscience, nagging, the thought of the time I have with the people around me being limited and me not utilising it to the fullest weights a lot.
It is perhaps a bit of an odd introduction to a person, and a nonsensical first entry, but those are the thougths that are in the present moment going through my mind.
If anyone reads this, I will have to ask of you to bear over with my language as I am obviously not a native english speaker and I won’t proofread this before posting.
I often keep myself from voicing my concerns and thoughts to others if they are not positive, since they are nothing of consequence and there would be nothing to be gained from it, but I always try to be honest, though my honestly in “real life” is more filtered, though I have to admit I often find it a bit frightening.
I have no idea what this site has to offer, and what kind of people that are here or if anyone even reads these, but I am looking forward to exploring the posts here and read the thougths that others are throwing into the web.
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