Fear in Whats in a book?

Yet another thing Im doing for my dayzeroproject. Thats right Im going to talk about all my fears. This will be very very long but I want to do this for myself. I've never done this before so this will be...awkward to say the least....

Here goes..

• rollercoasters...I can't deal with the adrenaline rush and they make me feel like I am going to die, literally. I went on one in 2007 and almost kept my eyes closed the whole time. Surprisingly I will go on a log ride though, ha.

• Crickets. Yes, CRICKETS. I've been able to kill some before that wouldn't shut the fuck up in the house and I couldn't sleep ha. But I think it's more the fact that they look so scary and can jump like they do. If I was surrounded by them, I'd probably die, but I've gotten better over the years with freaking out and seeing one in the house.

• Driving on the highway. I guess its more of maybe driving in general but I've gotten better at it since I've been driving for almost 5 years. But just thinking of driving on the highway scares the fuck out of me. Going off the ramp and hoping to god you don't get hit. Switching lanes back and forth. Heavy fucking god awful traffic. Omg.

• Heights. I can handle being on a plane but not on a ladder. Go figure. I also don't really like slides that have a million steps, makes me too nervous.

• HEAVY TRAFFIC. I mention this all the time, but I just can't stand horrible intersections or anything related...like flashing red lights too..horrible omg. But anywhere with congested traffic makes me want to shoot myself but before that have a panic attack.

• Failure. At almost anything really. Particularly at jobs or something I was really pining for. I don't want to be known as a person who can't do anything right. I have a definite fear of trying new things, in many aspects, because I feel like im just going to fail at it.

• Confrontation. I honestly hate any type of confrontation so I try to avoid it as much as possible even when it means letting my pride go out the window. I hate getting screamed at, well who doesn't, or anyone coming at me and telling me how I fucked up everything and ruined everything.

I don't like feeling cornered and surrounded, either by customers or anyone else.

• Dying young. I have an intense fear of this because I think about the concept of death so much honestly. I really do. Plus, diabetes sort of runs in my family a little. Im not overweight but that doesn't mean I can get it.

• Dying in general. Like I said, I think about the concept of death too much to not be afraid of death. In every aspect to, like either having my body burned, or have it in a casket forever in the ground. Creepy, really. That and the whole concept of an afterlife or nothing at all. And HOW it will happen of course. Probably the scariest part of it, other than what will happen after the fact.

thats all I can think of for now