“The distance from the man that I am, to the man I want to be.
The time it takes to realize, time is the distance I need”
These first lines hit me when I heard them the first time. As if someone had put to words the things I was dwelling on the last year or so; time and distance. How much time would it be before I felt.. different..better? Maybe enough time that it itself became a distance.
I wanted to try something new, which in this case was trying.
“But I was born impatient..
And I was born unkind”
I’ve had a hard time in life with the struggle of things. I wanted to be good at something, and when I struggled at whatever it was, I made myself believe it was because I wasn’t good at the thing.
Which, of course, was true. How could I be automatically gifted at all of the things. Of course, this could only mean one thing then: I was good at none of the things. And why would I want to put effort into something that was good at none of the things?
“But I refuse to believe I have to be the same person I was born when I die
Because change is alright”
I spent most of these years insisting that everyone was lying to me when they told me I was good at a thing. How could they not see it? I was imposter. A high school graduate who barely made it out, a Bachelors Degree in English Literature even though I didn’t like reading books. Hell, I stopped short of finishing the classes needed to get my Teaching License, rendering that degree near useless.
If someone thought I was good or talented, they simply just didn’t know.
I was an imposter in a sea of successful people who actually did things. I’d like to think that, now, I’ve started the process of following through on the things I always felt I left by the wayside. The simplest way to prevent things from being added to the unrelenting, faulty, pile of incompletion, is to simply do them.
“Change is alright”
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